Before I started hypnoanalysis I was suffering from panic attacks that made me house bound, not being able to go to the corner shop
let alone a supermarket. The worst attack happened when I was walking the dog and I had to run to get away from the main road onto a
quieter street and run home, the feeling that I was about to pass out at any time, rapid heartbeat, temperature change and shaking was
too much to take. I also had a bad one in town when I was with my mum and daughter and in fast food place having something to eat, and
I couldn’t eat, I just had to get out of there. I even started having them when I was stood in the garden talking to neighbours over the
fence and had to run inside. It got far too much and I felt I couldn’t cope and couldn’t do anything in case I passed out while I was with
my daughter (even though I never did pass out). So I locked myself in the house and made excuses not to go out anywhere. That was a year ago.
My family were also being affected as my daughter was one and a half and I couldn’t take her out and also family days out were a no go.
I had been to the doctor and all they said was to take anti-depressants, which I really didn’t want to do. I had known David for a couple
of years and when I saw him I would say I was going to call him and then make an excuse not to, seen as his office is in town. So eventually
after a couple of months I did call him and made my first appointment, my consultation. I didn’t cancel my partner took me and that in itself
getting there was a big step for me. It was just a chat to see if I was suitable to undertake hypnoanalysis. David was so easy to talk to and
just getting everything in the open made me feel a bit better. We also discussed my fear of spiders, where if I see one I run, scream or
hide it under a cup till my partner gets home. The week after I had my first session and I was worried about what I was going to do, what
it would feel like and a bit scared of what I might uncover and also if I am truthful, if it would even work. David explained everything
to me and made me feel better about it. The feeling of being relaxed was lovely and being able to forget about the outside world for an
hour or so. After the session I was very tired but felt so much better about myself. As the weeks passed my subconscious memory came
forward and allowed me to remember things I had previously forgot about. Between sessions I had very weird dreams and discussed them
with David at the next session and suddenly it all made sense. I would get annoyed with myself after sessions if my memory stopped me
releasing things. I found it amazing what my body would do to stop me seeing things such as making me need the toilet, making me cough
a lot and also as if my mouth wouldn’t move so I couldn’t talk. Some weeks were really hard and I cancelled sessions for quite a few weeks,
David would try to talk me round but I just couldn’t go. I used to tell him I didn’t have sitters, couldn’t afford or I was having to work.
But I am sure he saw through each one of these. Eventually after cancelling for 3 weeks I finally went back, but even the hour before I was
trying to think of excuses. We discussed this and I found out it was completely normal as my sub conscious was about to let me see something
that was scary and I had blocked for a reason. In this one session I unlocked the one thing that I had never remembered anything about it.
After this session I felt amazing and even went to the shop that evening by myself which I hadn’t done for a long time. All of a sudden my
dreams stopped and I felt so happy as if a massive weight had been weighing me down. I stopped arguing with my partner about who was going
to the shop. In a way I now feel sorry for my partner as now I stop and look on shelves in shops and go more places hence I am spending more
money. My final session was a massive confidence boost which gave me the confidence to actually go out again. Also now if I see a spider I
can just leave it and not panic about where it is going. I now go shopping. Since I have finished the sessions I have done so much, I am
applying for new jobs, started my own little business as a nail technician, decorated the house, dyed my hair and me and my partner have
booked our wedding which was all being stopped by the attacks. I have just had my hen party and was really able to enjoy it. I am writing
this crying because looking back on it all I don’t know how I coped and never realised how much it also affected my family. But I now know
it wasn’t my fault, none of it. All I can now say is I am so glad I did it and it helped so much. I am now back to the old me. The one my
partner first met.
THANK YOU SO MUCH DAVID!